not in my hands..

I lost control and that rarely happened. I got to say in in simple words and with better tone but it just too much to ask for less.

i'm hurt when i cursed someone
i'm hurt when i expressed my anger
but
sometimes life asked me to do so
when other ways never work out

once i've been so weak
keeping everything by myself
being an angel even in hell
but
experience taught me more
express it or you'll be ignored

now i don't even care
life taught me too much
never care for others unless they deserved it
never share with someone if they are too selfish
never mind to lose if they don't know how to cherish it

because i still believe
a nice person is existed
but selfish people crowded the world
one way or another
be nice to someone who deserved it
not to all
since not everyone willing to share
not everyone is an angel
because most of it love to be the devil.

think about it...life is not fair for sure and there's too much selfishness to handle. if you are too into yourself just be out of my sight, it just hurting me. If you don't know how to share there's so much time to learn and remember giving command is not a way of life because we have our own minds. Being in a group doesn't mean you have to be like others maybe it's better to be yourself and create your own identity rather that being a follower which at the end being forgotten. stop being 'fake' so nice outside but so 'selfish' inside. It just not fair to others. there's so much more to say but so little words to choose.